What I mean by, “You got this”, is that you know and I know that you can remember the situations you’ve been through in the past few years and remember that you had no clue, no idea, that you would have overcome them.
I have many, and I mean, I have been through many situations where I had no idea what I was going to do with my life. I remember the panic attacks, the anxiety, and the insecurity in my finances, marriage, and day-to-day life.
I remember when a year ago, my husband and I lost our apartment. We had been fortunate enough to live in a beautiful part of Brooklyn that not so many people get the ability to do so and unfortunately our luck run out when our roommate chose to kick us out and give us two weeks to find a new place to live.
That event triggered a lot of stress for my husband and I but today we’re happy and live in Queens with wonderful roommates and better finances. Those two weeks were hell on earth for us and while we saw no way out and we had a lot of pressure it let us become closer together in a period where we were not close to each other anymore and at a time when ‘divorce’ was thrown back and forth in our conversations.
I remember the time I almost got divorced. My husband and I were so distant with each other because of our lack of communication and time spent together that lead my husband to ask me that if I wasn’t happy anymore and if he wasn’t bringing me happiness he wouldn’t want me to waste my life with him.
We had so many arguments and avoidance with each other that it become poison when our eyes met.
He eventually asked me to decide what I wanted to do and I’m not a saint and I had my sins and he had his sins but the problem of the apartment had led us to talk. We let out all the toxins. God knew we were distant and as hardheaded as we both were I believe he took away our foundation to remember that God was the support we needed and that our marriage was not one of this Earth but one from Him.
That was another scenario we had gone through in just the past year. I remember that at that time we stopped paying tithes and attending church. While God saved our marriage and living situation we had never recovered financially until we began tithing again and attending church. We reset our priorities.
The hardest thing God had ever had me go through was about two years ago when I had moved to New York City with my husband and we spent three months in Brooklyn. I had enjoyed it so much but my husband chose that he wanted to move us back to our hometown.
I was heartbroken and believe I had heard wrong from God. I was insecure in my faith, my marriage, and my own psychological reasoning. So much so that I was not myself anymore and had fallen into a spiral of depression, anxiety, and stress. I didn’t believe in myself anymore and I hated my husband and God.
After I had gotten over myself, which took about a few months., my husband had finished up dance nationals in our hometown and his heart was open to moving back to New York City. Well, it wasn’t time for us to move earlier but a year later we both had an agreement (agreement) is very important in a marriage) to move back to Brooklyn.
And so we did move back to Brooklyn and you know what we’ve been through hell and back in New York City but I’ll tell you something whenever that stress is overwhelming I chose to stop, breathe, and remember that I cut through so many situations and then we got this.
There is no doubt in my mind that God won’t help us through the end. There is no doubt in my mind that I’m not going to overcome any obstacle that comes my way. There is not a single doubt in my mind that I won’t be successful.
I didn’t see the light in these past situations I’ve been through but today I know that anything that was to happen to me today I can believe that God would help me overcome. This is faith. This is what testimonies are for.
Stick with it. It’s bound to pay.