When I graduated college I believe that I wanted to be the best graphic designer in New York City. That was what was in my head and my motivation to work hard at what I was doing. Now that I’m in New York City and the older I get the more I realize that I don’t only want that goal as much anymore, I want more.
Instead of being the best graphics designer in New York City I would rather help people with my design work. I don’t care as much that I’m the best. I have also become infatuated with fitness and health and how it can help people better their lives and give them a more satisfying experience.
The fitness thing is actually something I’ve gotten into last year because of my struggle and annoyance with my own body that I chose to do something about it myself. I not only shaved off about seven minutes from my mile but I have raised the bar in how much I can lift, squat, and just plain do with my body.
I love how much happier I am and confident I am with myself, my body, and who I am. Although I have my down days I know that they would be far worse than what they are now.
I’m writing this article because I realize that society wants us to pick what we need to be or want to be at the age of 17 or 18 in high school.
And I have found that an 18-year-old should not decide the future of their life.
At 18, I was still focusing on getting married, and wanting to find my place in life as a person, enjoy my friends, and I had no idea what I wanted to be. I even took a year off after I graduated high school to understand what I liked and after that year I discovered graphic design.
The older I get the more I think about how I want to learn kickboxing, and I want to run a marathon, climb mountains, hike, bike, and just help nature, the Earth, and do social design work.
I want to create short films and I want to do more than what my bachelor’s degree can give me. And you know what if I could do it all over again I would’ve never gotten a degree and I would’ve learned everything on my own to make myself money.
I believe that this is what our 20’s are all about. Some of us may choose to go to Harvard, and some of us may go to the local community college, but I know for a fact that not all of us and many of us have no idea what they want to be at 18 years old.
I want you to know that you may not know what you want to be and you may never really get it until you practice the one thing that you like and when you practice it enough it evolves to become something more and you begin to find your purpose.
As long as your purpose is not about you and being the best at something for yourself and it is instead about others, your life will be fulfilling. That is a promise. Don’t beat yourself up because you have no idea what you want to do for the rest of your life just know what you want to do right now.
What you do now will help you with what happens later.
You are always evolving and you are becoming more and more splendid every day. Don’t be so hard on yourself, the answers are coming.
Yessenia Diaz has a background in graphic and web design but is also intrigued by writing and teaching. Yessenia created Tru.Works as an outlet for all her talents and continues collecting stories from around the world to share with people all across the interweb. Follow Yessenia on Instagram and her favorite, Twitter, @ythegreatdiaz.