I Don’t Want To Be Human

I Don't Want To Be Human
©William Stitt2016

I talk about being overwhelmed a lot. I know it happens to the best of us at random times. Have you ever felt like you see no reason to keep pushing through and trying in anything that you do?

I get like that sometimes.

I’m just being honest.

In my relationships and career there comes moments for me where I need to take deep breaths and remember why I’m doing things.

Before I take that deep breath I get lost in the chaos of my mind and find myself just wanting an easy way out of life. If there was a way not to live this life without having to end it yourself, I bet more people would end their lives than there are people who actually comit suicide today.

I’m not even saying I’m suicidal but I’m saying is,

“When is this all going to be over?”

The busy schedules, the struggle to get places on time, the responsibilities, the wrk and effort. When can I finally rest?  Most people beieve that you’ll only find rest when you’re dead.

What kind of life is worth living where I’m never ging to stop worrying and working?

It’s these shower thughts that lead me to almsot getting depressed.

Rather quickly I find strength in my mind. I have no idea where it comes from but I’m reminded of Scripture and good memories that remind me of why I’m working on what I do every day.

I can see the smiles of my neices, the laughter from my husband, the fun I have with my friends and coworkers. It always comes back to people.

Psalm 73:26 “My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.”

1 Peter 5:7 “Casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you.”

Psalm 116:7 “Return to your rest, my soul, for the Lord has been good to you

I take the Bible literally. I’ve never ever questioned it and it’s truly given me peace of mind in everything I do. Maybe, just maybe I need these reminders. I haven’t ben reading so much lately and so maybe, it’s getting harder foor my mind to bring back these promises to me when I need help.

For those of you who don’t believe in Scripture, I suggest looking to people. Remembering what’s good about people, the good things they’ve done and what you want to do for humanity.

I find that as soon as you start looking at the bad, that’s when you get unmotivated.

Remember the smiles, the laughter, and the joy you’ve brought to people.

Rememeber that, and you’ll always stand back up and start again.

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